Linger

 

My mind lingers and takes voyages on the seas of my experiences.

It lingers in thought and gets stuck in the storm of regret.

 I don’t know why I keep traveling to those locations that leave me with a constricting heaviness.

 I don’t why I can’t forget those embarrassing moments that occurred when I was most fragile.

I am left haunted by the phantoms of fresh recollection.

It hurts.

I know that there is freedom and that everyone makes mistakes.

I know that I must not linger on my failure.

But that knowledge lives in my mind and has not traveled to my heart.

I keep going back and I keep thinking of the perceptions of others.

All the tumultuous seas of me, all of the tempests of my memory.

It hurts.

But I still board the vessel every time.

I can only cry out,

God, please take me out of this captivity.

Help me realize that You can calm my storm.

You can bring me rest.

Jesus, whisper Peace Be Still.

Help me to be still and know.

You are in control.

Storms help me to grow.

I won’t linger on my failure.

I won’t linger on my pain.

 I will linger on Your grace

I will linger on Your Love

I will linger on Your forgiveness.

 I will trust that You are enough.

Jesus, You are the captain of my mind

 

I will take my voyages on the sea of Your Sovereignty.